In My Dreams

You were in my dreams again last night, only the second one l've had of you since your passing. You are always on my mind, and even in my happiest moments, I am saddened by your absence, but with summer quickly approaching, my heart seems to be breaking all over again.

Last night, I was haunted by your accident, and the only way I could still my mind was to sing praises to the Father who holds me in the palm of His hand. I fell asleep singing, "I love you Lord, for your mercies never fail me."

His mercies truly never do fail me, because I was able to fall asleep and dream sweet dreams of you, my son. I held you in my arms and made silly noises boys laugh at, while you popped my air filled cheeks with laughter. You even gave me sweet kisses. Before I woke, I started praising the Lord in my sleep for the dream He had so graciously given me, and as I woke, I gave Him thanks for His mercies.

I would never choose to live this life without you, but there is no doubt that I couldn't live this life without God. He's too gracious, too good, and ever so present, for me not to pursue. I truly do love you, Lord.

"It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, Because his compassions fail not."

Lamentations 3:22